when the last one falls;

& when it's all said & done

had 2006e reunion today :D I LOVE 2006E (((:

i am like SO busy now but finding time to blog so see how much i want to see my blog alive LOL.

i don't understand factorisation ): help please? it's kinda confusing & all the answers are wrong according to the book )x helppppp.

& i found out that bio is THIIIISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS interesting :D chapter 9 is all about reproduction & chromosomes & cells & whatevernots. SO FASCINATING (!!) anybody wants me to teach? (:

my whole september holidays are full manzxzxssss. only weds is free, i guess. sighs. sorry lah this post kinda random but i guess this is the easy way to cover everything i want to say without taking up too much of my studytime :D

okay lah i shall go now.

TATA

perhaps, perhaps.

now you see me, now you don't.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUDREY GOH WEI LING (!!!)
i love you forever & ever & ever & ever & ever & ever okayy <33
(hugs)

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY TO YOU TOO (!!) :D

I LOVE YOU, BUDAK (:

& i bet i'm the first to wish you xDD

because it never should have happened, because i wanted to die;

because it had to be

am i going crazy or something? i've been stuffing myself with all kinds of food since like 8 o clock & now i'm still eating. (sighs) something to do with tiredness.
I FEEL LIKE KILLING MYSELF. i'm giving up on my studies, i'm giving up on everything; tell me, what's the use of living on? sighs, like ms low let us watch that broadway thingo :"life is just a bowl of cherries - don't take it seriously. live and laugh out loud." okay whatever it doesn't make sense but you get what i mean.
please don't call/sms me now, cus i'll just slam the phone down or spam you with vulgarities. i don't know why i just feel like doing it lah, so if you want to die then come sms me now
D:< let me vent out my frustrations. (on the other side)

bye_

you don't make me, bitch.

it was like a fragment of a dream i'd forgotten;

but now remembered with all the power of a deja vu

HELLO PEEPETTES :D

i so totally FLUNKED chinese oral (!!!) i got the 7th and 10th word of the first sentence WRONG. like how DEAD am i?

i still haven't told my parents about flunking maths & sci, & now THIS ):

ANYWAY, on a brighter note, janice told me about the rest of her HILARIOUS dream that she forgot to tell me. zOMG it SOOOO made my day brighter (shields eyes)

i'm going out later (!!!) teachers' day is coming real soooon (: i think i'm going back qifa, but not too sure though :D hope to see everyone (:

okay lah i'm like terribly bored so i'll go play neopets (!!!) SO FUN SO FUN (claps hands!)

okay maybe i'll rather read my book

BYEBYE

thinking of you makes me want to cry.

the pain is gone;

but the scars will forever remain

HELLO PEEPETTES (:

SOMEONE is complaining that i'm not updating so here i am :D
AUDREY HAS CREATED A BLOG!! (!!!!!) thankew thankew, my influence, my influence.
elcomarts skit was yesterday. aiyah i was like SHIT can & i was like :O when sheena said i had to wear this beak which looked like an ice cream cone sprayed with urine xD

okay... i just sent afiqah an sms that comprimised of 77 words & 3 numbers. :D please take note: the 77 words were in ONE SENTENCE (!!!) (& the sms was 3 pages long [?!])

we got back our maths & science ct marks back today, & i'm glad (NOT) not say that i flunked both of them (!!!!) really. ARGH i am SO dead.

okay lah i have decided to mug (for nothing except home ec & i didn't bring my book home [!!!])

TATA-

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I HAVE CHINESE ORAL TMR AND I AM SOOOOOOOO GONNA FLUNK IT TOO! (!!!!)

you have no empathy;

i don't know how you look at yourself in the mirror

SIGHSx100 (!!!) today i embarrassed myself a total of 5 times (?!!)

& i realised because of afiqah, i always don't get to see what i want to see. grr. >.<

no mass run today, mass dance :D siti was SUPER ZUPER BUPER enthu.

okay, about the mini-partdate yesterday!

went to vivo & spent about only 3 hrs there (me & jan) which is SO not enough if you wanna camwhore with your dear platoonmate who is constantly doing wrong things xD we went around toysrus basically taking pictures of everything around. i have TONS of pictures which i think i'll upload sometime later :D

jancie told me about her hilarious dream while we were eating & it made me choke on my chicken (: & i was trying to keep a straight face during the whole journey under the underpass (i succeeded!) while janice was telling me the getting married part. i swear my mouth was numb when i finally got the drift & started laughing. my eyes were watering lah LOL.

then cus there were 8 people there then we like accidentally (not on purpose) go walk into the fall in position. & me, being damn elegant & sophisticated, spotted this funny thing. so i was like,

me: EH EH look we're in fall in position!

janice: EH EH YAH!

me: EH EH people look we're in fall in position & siti's the right marker!

siti: (turns back & laughed)

me: EH EH NO SHE CANNOT TAKE MY POSITION!!!!!!!!

me: (rushes up to siti & pushes her away so i can be right marker)

AND SO, our position was messed up. HAHA.

then after eating we went upstairs to play water. my skirt got wet so i took it off & hung it over my head. then it sorta looked like a GOWN, those kinda off-shoulder kind, so i was like, "LOOK LOOK, I LOOK SO ELEGANT & SOPHISTICATED!" & everyone was laughing their asses off so elegant & sophisticated became my favourite phrase! haha. then a little meimei was scared of me cus i looked like some kinda alien :O

then i realised my primary school shorts looked like FBTs (!!!) thanks sab for telling me that :D

okay, this shall be all i guess. waiting for my mum to come back with the friggin graph paper so the maths rep can do her maths homework. & also the ice cream. (YUM!) & also the toilet paper to wipe our butts with :D

the other things, you know where to go.

tata--

these sound-oholics;

these quiet-ophobics

i forgot to say something:

friday during pe we had to run around the canal then me & joey (LEAD SINGER!) were leading like 15 people to sing national day songs. we were like providing background music for the others! :D the best thing was, mr samat didn't scold :D

(sad, he's leaving on audrey's bday.)

just came back from bugis with mummy :D

we stepped into OG & started looking at the pots :O (typical housewives) maths common test is in about 21 hrs 59 mins & i haven't started studying a thing. really scared that i cannot finish but at the same time too lazy to study. my chinese common test results have disappointed me & my science probably will too. i'm supposed to mug for maths (as a normal person would) but here i am wasting time typing this.

i shall go mug now, bye

it's a free world;

whatever.

today was... today was so-so :D

no mass run was the best thing that happened today. the others were shit not that exciting. we had 4 whole friggin periods of maths & she just didn't want us to take a break.

i don't get it: why do teachers ask us to do so much homework when they want to save the earth? (save paper!)

some funny things happened today.

me: (wanted to put on skirt under table so ms L couldn't see)

me: (but unfortunately, i banged my knee on the underneath of the table)si hui: (i don't know what was so funny in the first place!) HAHAHA!

me: (winces) this shows i have LONG LEGS!

si hui: (pause)

si hui: ....but NO BRAINS!

yeah && i wrote another 500 word essay on why i **** ****. it went basically like this:

i like **** because i love love love love love love love love love

(goes on for about 250 words)

it

fullstop.

**** ***** ***** **** is very very very very very very very very very very

(goes on for about 250 words)

cute

fullstop.

amagad, you should've seen audrey's expression when she saw the paper.

but i still got 30/100 (broad smile!)

si hui: (sits up straight)

me: (slouches back on chair)

si hui: eh i taller than you leh! (she's actually about 3cm shorter than me)

me: who said? (sits up straight)

si hui: (expression changes from happy to disappointed)

si hui: (slouches back)

okay.. i don't know what's so funny about this one but si hui's expression was hilarious.

me: (finishes drawing something for maths & turns to si hui)

me: correct anot?

si hui: yah.

si hui: eh, no. your H wrong. but your others correct.

si hui: (pause)

si hui: AHHAHAH! your UDDERS correct!

si hui is SO funny. great partner, no? :D especially if audrey starts calling herself moo (cow) & another person cow.back.side (cow). now, udders (cow). what a relationship with COWS!

then then about 20 mins till the end of school, lynn started passing around this teen magazine & showing everyone this frigging disgusting article & asking everyone to read it out. what's so funny about it that you have to share with everybody, i don't know. (i sound so much like a teacher!)

then about 10 mins later, i was at jiaying's seat, which is beside theng's. then theng started waving vigourously at me, so i started waving vigourously back at her. (it's kinda our class tradition?) then our hands started going nearer to each others' faces (sounds wrong!) then theng's hand actually knocked into my nose! it, like, did the action of chopping off my nose. then i was like, "OMG! YOU CHOPPED OFF MY NOSE! OMG! CAN YOU IMAGINE WHAT HAPPENED IF YOUR HAND WAS A KNIFE! OMG!" & i carried on like this for about 15 seconds & all theng & sheena could do was stand/sit there & laugh laugh. then jiaying appeared out of nowhere & asked us what happened. theng & sheena were STILL laughing uncontrollably, so, me, being more elegant & sophiscated, explained what happened to jiaying (between fits of giggles)

amagad, hilarious, i tell you.

it is now 812 pm, about 4 hr 17 mins after this begun, & i still haven't type finish. no, actually, being a really hardworking, studious & good girl, took a break to do my homework. then, i realised that i had no crescent foolscap paper, which is required for the toopid lit.

so.. i can't be a good girl anymore.

okay whatever, i'm crapping hyper today.

tata-

just can't get over it.

i did a 500+ word essay for audrey on why i **** *****. shows how dedicated i am.
i got 70/100, i passed okay. & there were no singlishes in it :D
i have proof.
now i have to go finish reading my big pile of library books which amount to 7 books which are all due on 29 august & 1 september respectively. (what a long sentence)
i love reading cus it improves my english & now i've started reading tons&tons of books my maths is failing. 8/20
but i got 2ndhighest for hist :D

okay, reading time :D
BYEBYE (waves)

all that's between us is a narrow one-way road.
a road with a never-ending line of traffic that seems to grow longer every 5 seconds.

life goes on as normal around me.
but my mind's clouded with these awful thoughts.
when can it stop?

pull that dagger of doubt out of my heart.

HELLO PEEPETTES :D

went to celebrate senior's bday yesterday :D so fun so fun manzxzxsss. too bad i had to leave early ):

mass run today xD i got a blister on my SOLE (omfg) after running. && people started saying my shoe was too small for me. actually my shoe is damnn bigg it's like 1.5 sizes too big. so yeah.

hazzie owes me letter (again.)

my eyesight's getting poorer & my hands are getting restless & my legs are getting softer. i can't see properly & my hands keep going to the wrong places (DON'T THINK WRONG.) & my legs can't seem to support me as well as last time (explains the blister.)

this'll be the randomest post in the whole blog cus i simple have nothing better to do except frickin' pbl.

anyhoos, audrey asked me to write 4 TEAQs for her, for why i **** *****. so lame but at least i had something to do except copy bi ji. & i passed okay. i got 51/80 which is like, a b4 :D she said she can use it to revise for lit but in the end i took it back home cus it had too many singlishes. & we started talking bad about some-people-know-who & jiaying suddenly dropped my correction tape & it burst into two pieces & all the tape fell out & now it's unusable cus of TAN JIA YING. (what a long sentence.)

i'm seriously angry with SBS buses cus yesterday & today i missed two buses (in a row). yesterday when i was about to reach the bus stop i saw a bus going away, so i started walking slower. (i didn't walk SO slow) then when i was about to reach the bus stop, another bus arrived. i started to RUN RUN RUN, then i started waving my hand like crazy, then the bus just zoomed past the bus stop (it didn't even come into the frickin' bus lane.) & zoomed on towards the MRT station. I WAS FRICKIN' INFURIATED & was stomping my foot every 5 seconds. is the bus driver blind or something? i was wearing YELLOW (for gawhd's sake) & he couldn't see me running &jumping & waving my hand like crazy? blind, i tell you.


1308
-missed 2 buses in a row
-reach school LATE
-forgot to bring storybook down (!!!!!!!!)
-stand in front of school with a whole bunch of other forgetful people (audrey included)
-went JE to meet senior
-walked to her house
-left early
-reach home, knocked on the door for a whole 15 minutes & no one opened it
-my mum & brother were sleeping (!!!!!!!!)
-didn't eat a single thing until 8.45 at night
(pro or pro?!)

1408
-MISSED THE FRICKIN' BUSES AGAIN
-reached school LATE AGAIN
-mass run
-BLISTER ON SOLE
-endured the 1hr05min till recess, without my shoe & sock on
-put too much chilli into my prawn guotiao
-assembly was terribly boring
-doing pbl in lab.

WHAT AN EXCITING LIFE MANZXZXSS.

tata.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY! ((:
i got no present for you :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!
42 years - SO OLD.

p.s. i got my haircut (which was overdue since june holidays)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!! <3
though the 'present' i gave you wasn't that good.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SENIOR GADIS!! ((:
alpha loves you like shit.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HONGYI'S DAD!
though i don't even know who you are.

in case you haven't noticed, they're all 0708s.
COOL or COOL?

TODAY.

8 disasters. 3 fortunes.

HAPPY 15TH SGT WAI HAN :DD
HAHAHA.

sorry peepettes. have to say something important.

HAPPY 16TH SENIOR DEBBIE (((:
good luck for your 'levels, senior :D
HAPPY 15TH SGT WENDY (((:
very happy birthday!

haha, isn't it coincidental. they're both 0308s.
ohwells.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

credits to afiqah ;)

HELLO PEEPETTES (:

today was a uber tiring day.
i overslept & reached school at 7.05.
normally i'd reach the latest at 6.55 or 7.
but today i was just too tired & took my own sweet time to walk.
yeah, but i was still so sweaty when i reached.
mass run was horrible.
even BEFORE the run, i'd already had that stupid stitch.
after the run, it just became worse.
nothing worked to make it go away.
why why why am i so unfit
can you believe having a stitch when you're not even doing anything except talking to jiaying?
i'm seriously thinking this is BADD.
like appendicitis or something.
really, although very often when i run i'll get stitches, it was never as serious as these few days'.
stitches for nothing.
& my whole face was frickin pale like lady ghost.
according to jiaying.

during PE we played FRISBEE (!!!)
audrey kept throwing it onto my tummy
tong shang jia tong

after recess i felt a 'lil better.
i was beginning to think maybe it was just gastric.
but when i started climbing the stairs, the pain came back again.
after school i felt even better
had lunch with platoonmates
then i remembered i had to post something before i ran out of time & everyone went home.
so to save time i ran almost all the way to my destination.
started out with fast walk, didn't want the stitch to come back again.
but even though, i still had pain.
i thought i'd chase the evil away by provoking it even more, so i started running all the way back to the canteen.
guess what, the pain was even worse.
nevermind, i ate my lunch.
i went home myself & fell asleep one bus stop before mine.
luckily i just dozed.
whatever lah.

fyi the stitch is still here.
get lost, stitch.
no one likes you.
shoo.
(i'd personally prefer lilo.)

pray for me.
pray for me to get my part notebook back.
pray for me to get good marks for my common tests.
pray for me not to let people down.
pray for me to stop people from disturbing me.
pray for me for this emotion to go away.
pray for me for the stitch to die.

i open my eyes
i try to see but i'm blinded by the white light.
i can't remember how
i can't remember why
i'm lying here tonight
& i can't stad the pain
& i can't make it go away
no i can't stand the pain

how could this happen to me?
i made my mistakes
got nowhere to run
the night goes on as i'm fading away
i'm sick of this life
i just wanna scream
how could this happen to me?

everybody screaming
i try to make a sound but no one hears me
i'm slipping off the edge
i'm hanging by a thread
i wanna start this over again
so i try to hold
on to a time when nothing mattered
& i can't explain what happened
& i can't erase the things that i've done
no i can't.

how could this happen to me?
i made my mistakes
got nowhere to run
the night goes on as i'm fading away
i'm sick of this life
i just wanna scream
how could this happen to me?

i made my mistakes
got nowhere to run
the night goes on as i'm fading away
i'm sick of this life
i just wanna scream
how could this happen to me?

I.

AM.

THE.

NEW.

MATHS.

REP.



(!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)





EX-KU-ZEH-MUAA, please take a look at the left, under the "hates." (@#**%&$*&%^^#$&) whyyyyyy??!!?!?!?!!?!?!!?!
but nehmind, i have the class list & now i can get my revenge!

(what revenge? to tell you the truth, i also donno.)


today was a ubberly funny day :D was starving till the ubberly late recess, at 10.40. si hui kept me entertained with talks of WRONG things. yah like eg, science q.


me: milk is compound or mixture?
si hui: milk is... milk comes out from the.... i shall not say the word.
me: OMG, you want to say don't say so loud lah! even sheena also can hear (!!!!!!)


haha, disgusting freak.


then the screen had a problem, then like half of the powerpoint presentation was cut off & we couldn't see anything, so we persuaded mr goh to let us go find the TA, but he said that time at C2 this problem also occurred, then when people go call TA, by the time TA come the problem fixed already & it was damn embarrassing. (please lah, you so superstitious, you think one time happen then everytime happen meh?) yah so finally, lynn went to find TA lah, then when she left the classroom, audrey suddenly said, "EH SHE NEVER TAKE TAG LEH!"


me: oh yah! (turns to si hui) eheh she never take tag leh!
si hui: oh yah! (turns to sheena) sheena she never take tag leh!
sheena: oh yah! (turns to theng hui) eh theng hui she never take tag leh!

so theng went chasing after her. & they came back soon reporting they'd seen a ghost on the TA window. during recess me & audrey decided to check it out. audrey was actually looking for a big big window lah, so when she saw the face on a small window (those kind of back staircase doors the window) she was like OH MY GAWHD & started running away. i just stood there laughing like a lunatic cus i'd already told her it was there & she still donno.

ANYHOOS!

i donno what to say now so i shall LEAVE.

tata (waves)

do you ever feel like breaking down?
do you ever feel outta place?
like somehow you just don't belong
& no one understands you?

do you ever wanna run away?
do you lock yourself in your room?
with the radio on turned up so loud
that no one hears yous screaming?

no you don't know what it's like
when nothing feels alright
you don't know what it's like
to be like me.

to be hurt
to feel lost
to be left out in the dark
to be kicked
when you're down
& feel like you've been pushed around
to feel on the edge of breaking down
& no one's there to save you
no you don't know what it's like
welcome to my life

do you wanna be somebody else?
are you sick of being so left out?
are you desperate to find something more
before your life is over?

are you stuck inside a world you hate?
are you sick of everyone around?
with the big fake smiles & stupid lies
while deep inside you're bleeding?

no you don't know what it's like
when nothing feels alright
you don't know what it's like
to be like me.

to be hurt
to feel lost
to be left ou tin the dark
to be kicked
when you're down
to feel like you've been pushed around
to feel on the edge of breaking down
& no one's there to save you
no you don't know what it's like
welcome to my life.

no one ever lied straight to your face
& no one ever stabbed you in the back
you might think i'm happy
but i'm never gonna be okay
everybody always gave you what you wanted
never had to work, it was always there
you don't know what it's like, what it's like

to be hurt
to feel lost
to be left out in the dark
to be kicked
when you're down
to feel like you've been pushed around
to be on the edge of breaking down
& no one's there to save you
no you don't know what it's like
what it's like

to be hurt
to feel lost
to be left out in the dark
to be kicked
when you're down
to feel like you've been pushed around
to be on the edge of breaking down
& no one's there to save you
no you don't know what it's like
welcome to my life
welcome to my life
welcome to my life